the checklist

if depression...

is sleeping 18 hours a day
is forgetting to eat
is knowing nothing tastes good anyway
is taking a shower based on the calendar
is walking 2 blocks to avoid a 3 min. conversation
is having endless violent, sweaty nightmares
is watching TV and not knowing what you saw
is swearing so bad the dog avoids you
is needing coffee but not going downstairs to pour it
is wishing the calendar went from Dec. 23 to Dec. 26
is starring into the dark and seeing faces to hell and gone
is avoiding every mirror
is checking your phone and glad no one has called
is driving on fumes just 'cuz you don't wanna get out of the truck
is reading Poe for laughs
is wearing orange with purple 'cuz you don't give a damn
is not washing the truck since this time last year
is having a calendar dating 2016
is not renewing your driver's license or the Reader's Digest
is gazing at a cemetery longingly
is telling your doc things you'll regret
is apologizing to the angels for having to watch you
is finding creative ways to fake it til (if) you shake it
is looking for any excuse to disengage
is cussing your wife when she says 'snap out of it'
is listening endlessly to Chris Stapleton's 'Broken Halos'
is forgetting what 'good' felt like...

then, yeah. I may be a little blue. How are you?