Alone

I sit alone in this room
Surrounded by these walls
Thinking about going out
But I wait here for her call.

I could take the bull by the horns
And venture out on my own
But that feels kinda hollow
Like a payment on a loan.

So I guess I’ll sit by myself
Close my eyes against the dark
And wish a little light would come
If only just a spark.

But I’ve grown accustomed
To living in shades of gray.
I’m a creature of the night
Uncomfortable with day.

Her memory seems to crowd me.
I try hard to ignore
Her smile and her face
And what has gone before.

I feel myself falling away
And sinking through the floor
As I try my best to live my life
On this side of the door.